Eye contact used to be hard for me. I remember in college having a horrible time even looking the cafeteria server in the eye when he dished up a tray of crunchy chicken nuggets and a couple Otis Spunkmeyer cookies (basic diet my freshman year). I had to force my eyeballs to look in his eyeballs and hold there for 5 seconds. It really was an effort. It was awkward. I was so insecure that I didn’t even want to connect or begin a conversation with anyone. Read More →
Some things I don’t want to do: laundry, clean bathrooms, make phone calls to schedule doctor appointments. I just don’t want to do them.
As grown-up responsible adults, we resolve and accept that we have to do the things we don’t want to do. Our want-to can’t drive our decisions within the day. Read More →
Hello, again! It’s been silent here for the last 3 months. Honestly, I was plumb out of words! The weeks leading up to the holidays and those after are notoriously crazy and noisy. For you, too? Post-crazy, I needed to be quiet. Silent. And listen to the “shhhh-ing” inside. The noise of my life had become so loud.
I love order and calmness and quiet. But, I live in a world in which there are only small doses of order, few moments of calmness, and very much anti-quiet.
There is nothing calm about Read More →
Happy Halloween and end of October!
All my life, I’ve pushed to be the best: the MVP, the high-point scorer, the Homecoming Queen, the President of the Student Body, the bible study teacher, the History Department Head, the Account Team Manager.
I’ve pushed and I’ve pressed to keep climbing the ladder, to be #1, to not be satisfied with anything but the tops.
Because, you know… being the best equals worth and validates all my hard work and effort. Read More →